i would handle all of my affairs, including my taxes, by myself. when all this happened, a lot of mail and stuff came to my house and i just put it in a room and closed the door on it for many months until i realized i could not do that and got someone to help me. some of the things are good, but most of the things are very good, but i think the kind of fame that happens in america is very destructive. unless you can fortify yourself i would ever practiced you confine -- meditation help meet a lot. >> the pulitzer prize for a first african american woman to win it for fiction read how did you feel? >> i was living in san francisco and i thought it was a joke but i had won the national book award i think the week before and someone said there was a collector, which i did not know existed for fiction. it was nice. i have this thing about prizes. i am suspicious of them. i think also they should be delivered to you, brought to your door with flowers and maybe with a violin playing, but they should never have to leave home to get an award. >> we will t